Like the world is caving in on me and no matter how much digging and climbing (or in this case cleaning, painting, and "fixing"), I'll never escape suffocation.
I'm really sick of the rollercoaster I'm on. One minute I'll start to feel confident about the work that we've done and think that we'll be ready to go on time. The next minute I'm looking around and thinking that we'll never get the house looking as good as we can and therefore we'll never get any money out of it. That's my biggest fear, I think--that we're asking too much and the house will sit for a very long time. Or that someone will make an offer, but we'll have to lose money to sell. There are so many little piddly things I'd still like to get done. And then my very biggest fear of all is having to keep it looking nice every single day while it's on the market--just in case someone wants to come see it. I just don't see how that is going to be possible. I can't wait until this whole episode is over--of course then I'll have to face moving, moving in to a new place, finding a job in Phoenix and starting completely over. It's all doable--and I'm even looking forward to the Being In Phoenix part of it--it's just a bit overwhelming when I think of it.
So anyway. We made a couple shampoo passes at the carpets, painted Kiki's room, cleaned up the front porch area and made a pathetic attempt at replacing the door handle hardware on the outer glass door. I cussed a lot, much to my mother's dismay, and threw my hands up and fled to the back porch for a good cry. She got it working, finally, although the door itself is crooked in the frame, so the door doesn't shut right anyway. Earlier today I cleaned out the storage shed, which was a nasty mess. Hopefully someone handyman-or-woman will appreciate the extra tool/garden storage. Didn't really get much else done today, I guess...a lot of looking around for house numbers and paint and drapery hardware. I'm so sick of it all!!
Anyway. Today is the last day of the 3 day weekend. I'm very thankful to have had three days off, and more than ecstatic that my mom was able to come visit and help as much as she has...but I'm loathe to go back to work. I need the time here to work and clean and pack and prepare. Mom's going to hang out for another day or so, I think, but then she has to go... I hope she can come back, because I really don't think I can handle this by myself.
*sigh* I'm so tired.
1 comment:
Kerri,
I know the feeling sister! Things will work out and get better. I would only be concerned about the house if you feel you paid too much. As it is I think that it will sell faster than you are thinking. Russell and you have done a lot of work to it, I think the faux finished walls would be a big selling point. As long as the animal smells are gone and the place is clean (when you have much of your things in storage that should be easier) you should have no problem.
Just listen to Monica's suggestions because it's her job to know what to do to make a house more desireable.
Maybe you can go visit Russell sometime soon. I'm sure the stress of not having him around is getting to you as well. (this is the point when you say, "duh Shannon")
Keep your chin up, it's going to be alright baby!!
Shanny
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